Is it possible to read too much?

Your eyes are deceiving you. That's totally an octagon.
I was reading a post about reading slumps when I started to wonder about the opposite of a reading slump, and something I'm currently experiencing: when you want to devour every book. When you want life to just STAHP so you can go and read your book.

I think this always happens to some extent, but to me, I'm starting to notice some trends. When I read in the mornings on my commute to school, it makes me quiet and pensive. I'm a little foggy because my mind is still in the book. I tend to read in class too, which my teachers tend to um, discourage.

When I don't read, it's because I'm listening to music. When I listen to music, I become energetic. If I hear a song, I have to move. It's a compulsion within me to move. While reading makes me retreat into a world of me, listening to music means my eyes are free to explore the world around me, and I'm usually in a great mood.

I'm not saying that reading is bad. But I do wonder if sometimes, it's important to step back.

When I'm in a reading obsession (that's what I'll call it), I have a "Go away, I'm reading!" vibe and I find it supremely irritating when someone or something interrupts my reading time. I hate every moment I'm away from my book, and at the end of the day, everything will fade away except for my book. I won't be able to recall anything of significance that occurred to me that day because I was reading.

Some wouldn't say this is a bad thing, but then, there is some context to me.

First, I was brought up with my parents both telling me I read too much. I guess I retreated too often to my room to read, and I guess at some point I kind of developed a terrible fear of missing out on life. I don't want to grow old and not have any amazing stories to tell. I don't want to be known for reading: I want to be known for doing.

There's nothing wrong with reading. I think I love it too much, and one fundamental part of my personality is that I lean towards idealism in that I will always try to have it all: I will want the grades, the social life, the books, the healthy food, the physical fitness, everything.

Reading genuinely brings me pleasure, but there's also a part of me that has grown from when I was a kid and that is terrified when I tell people to go away, I'm reading. This part of me demands that I broaden my interests. Because when you love something too much, it can also hurt you too much.

When I was a kid, going on a reading slump sucked majorly. I didn't want to read and I suddenly didn't know what to do with myself. For aforementioned reasons, doing nothing terrified me. So, the biggest thing I've done since then is diversify myself. Nothing is ever going to be my everything. I'm always trying to explore different parts of me and life, so if some part of it is bad, I have something else to look forward to.


I know that not everyone commits like me. When I love something, I throw myself at it 100% and that has a tendency not to work out. It's perfectly reasonable that this post won't make sense to some people. But for me, sometimes, I stop myself from reading too much because as much as I love being a bookworm, I try to remember that I'm human, not some book devouring machine, and I need to explore other areas of my life as well.

-P.E.

6 comments:

  1. Oh how interesting - I don't think I've ever really thought about this! I tend to read to the extent where I don't want to talk to people and even feel annoyed if someone texts me or something, but I usually feel like my reading is important too because it's something that makes me happy. It probably does keep me from doing social things or even watching people and connecting on a daily basis which seems like something people enjoy. But maybe I should strive for more balance in my life - so I can do both things... even though I don't really want to give up on any reading time... :)

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    1. I think balance is always important. I don't want to give up reading either. And I probably won't. I think I do try sometimes to make an effort and remember other people (because I can be pretty self-absorbed sometimes).

      -P.E.

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  2. I've thought about this before. My blog is called Feed Your Fiction Addiction, and I really don't think that's much of an exaggeration sometimes. When my reading starts to overshadow me giving attention to my kids and husband, it's an actual problem!

    Nicole @ Feed Your Fiction Addiction

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    1. Yeah, absolutely. I think one of my favourite things about high school was how it has gotten me interested in different things. So, maybe I'm still slightly obsessive about what I love, but I can dilute my love a little, and it makes me a better person. Well, that's what I'm telling myself, anyway. ;)

      -P.E.

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  3. I have always been accused of reading too much by my mum (mostly when it involved staying up late at night to finish a book) but I have long since decided to go with my mood. If I feel like devouring one book after another I will, cause there will be times when I won't feel like reading at all for days on end...

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    1. I've been accused I read too much by umm... well, every family member I've ever had, so I know what's it like. I think part of my problem is I really don't have the time to read that much. I mean, I want to, but then some books make my neglect my homework, and then I feel like an awful person with no future (senior yeah, bleh) and I get way too stressed out. But my interest in reading fluctuates too.

      -P.E.

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